“i’m so good at beginnings, but in the end i always seem to destroy everything, including myself.”
Kiera Van Gelder, The Buddha and the Borderline
“I ended up falling in love with the moon, because it faithfully showed up, night after night. ”
“every mouth you've ever kissed
was just practice
all the bodies you’ve ever undressed
and ploughed in to
were preparing you for me.
i don’t mind tasting them in the
memory of your mouth
they were a long hall way
a door half open
a single suit case still on the conveyor belt
was it a long journey?
did it take you long to find me?
you’re here now,
welcome home.”
Warsan Shire
“All this time
i drank you like the cure when maybe
you were the poison.”
Clementine von Radics
“at some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”
“Her heart sank into her shoes as she realized at last how much she wanted him. No matter what his past was, no matter what he had done. Which was not to say that she would ever let him know, but only that he moved her chemically more than anyone she had ever met, that all other men seemed pale beside him.”
F.Scott Fitzgerald, A New Leaf
“hope can be a powerful force. maybe there’s no actual magic in it, but when you know what you hope for most and hold it like a light within you,
you can make things happen, almost like magic.”
Laini Taylor, Daughter of Smoke & Bone
“she was perfect, pure maddening sex, and she knew it, and she played on
it, dripped it, and allowed you to suffer for it.”
Charles Bukowski, Factotum
“The memory of your hands are starting to strangle me.”
"10 word poem" Series -#45
“Let go, or be dragged.”
Zen Proverb
LUST HAS NO MERCY
You lost her.
And now she lights up the night-time sky for her new lover cause he recognized her as the moon.
And you envy him. She could’ve been your moon, but you were too busy chasing the dimly lit stars.
"That time you confused a lesson for a soulmate."
Before it's too late.
TAKE TIME.
Take time to figure yourself out
take time to realize what it is you want.
Take time to forget, to forgive.
Take time to take risks.
Take time to love.
Take time to be afraid.
Take time before it's too late.
take time.
It all comes down to the last person
you think of at night.
that's where your heart is.
“girls who run with the wolves aren't here for boys to love.”
Unknown
I wanted to write something profound to show how much I would miss you. I couldn't.
so I settled on "I'll see you soon."
“I’m not where I need to be, but thank god I’m not where I used to be.”
Unknown
“Too many young girls don’t know how to act when someone’s being inappropriate with them. They giggle or they try to brush it off. Don’t do that. Tell them to go fuck themselves - be a bitch. If someone’s being disrespectful to you, be disrespectful right back. Show them the same amount of respect that they show you.”
“I still get very high and very low in life. Daily. But I've finally accepted the fact that sensitive is just how I was made, that I don’t have to hide it and I don’t have to fix it.”
Glennon Doyle Melton, Lessons.
“
I am surprised by how much sex I have had in my life that I didn’t want to have. Not exactly what’s considered “real” rape, or “date” rape, although it is a kind of rape of the spirit - a dishonest portrayal or distortion of my own desire in order to appease another person.
I said yes because I felt it was too much trouble to say no. I said yes because I didn’t want to have to defend my “no,” qualify it, justify it - deserve it. I said yes because I thought I was so ugly and fat that I should just take sex every time it was offered, because who knew when it would be offered again. I said yes to partners I never wanted in the first place, because to say no at any point after saying yes for so long would make our entire relationship a lie, so I had to keep saying yes in order to keep the “no” I felt a secret. That is such a messed-up way to live, such an awful way to love.
So these days, I say yes only when I mean yes. It does require some vigilance on my part to make sure I don’t just go on sexual automatic pilot and let people do whatever. It forces me to be really honest with myself and others. It makes me remember that loving myself is also about protecting myself and defending my own borders. I say yes to me.”
Margaret Cho, "Yes Means Yes"
“i’m outrageously loud and painfully shy
and it’s difficult finding a balance between the two.”
“i get lonely almost as quickly as i get sick of people.”
Nate Mask
“when a thing disturbs the peace of your heart, give it up.”
Prophet Muhammad
Prophet Muhammad
“I read sometimes thinking I will find a hidden truth, a secret meaning but I realize that's not how this story ends and
the words are just sentences I don’t understand.”
the words are just sentences I don’t understand.”
“I like it when you call me baby, when you kiss my neck, pull me towards you, link your fingers with mine, take my underwear off, your smile in the morning when i give you; your goodbye kisses, how your mind is never ending, your laugh and most of all how you surprise me everyday.”
To Michael, all my love.
“i am someone who is looking for love. real love. ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love.”
Carrie Bradshaw
Carrie Bradshaw
“i cannot fathom the nights i have spent exhausting words for apologies i never owed and you never deserved.”
“her face was sad and lovely with bright things in it, bright eyes and a bright passionate mouth but there was an excitement in her voice that men who had cared for her found difficult to forget”
F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
Feeling a little lost, I have been pretending to a different person for longer than I can remember now. I don’t know how to act round people, I actual don’t think I ever did. Maybe I use to be able to hide it better
“You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn't get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win.”
The People You Will Fall in Love With in Your 20s
“when you say ‘yes’ to others, make sure you aren't saying ‘no’ to yourself.”
Paulo Coelho
“The hot girl is rarely the one in the sensible sweater sipping a diet coke. They’re usually ones with the personality that’s two parts Janine Butcher to one part Dita Von Teese, flirting outrageously rolling their eyes at unattractive suitors.
And why do they do this? Because it works. Being treated rudely is shorthand for: ‘Hey, this girl must be pretty special if she reckons she can get away with that!’
But do hidden depths of awesomeness exist beneath razor-sharp tongue? In my experience, sadly not. That’s why the emphasis is on dating - I don’t know anyone who can last the distance with someone like that. My demanding date girl initially captivating, but it soon got boring: lateness, mood swings and the annihilation of every book, film, play, friend or destination I liked saw that.
So I let her dump me - always a satisfying conclusion for any mean girl - and began dating someone much calmer who was less of a challenge, but who I actually enjoyed spending time with.
But did I miss the high-drama bitchiness I had been used to? Well, yes, a little bit. For as pleasant as a soft kiss and a tender cuddle from a girl might be, the allure of withstanding and perhaps one day conquering a nasty piece of work is, for most men a toxically-potent challenge.”
And why do they do this? Because it works. Being treated rudely is shorthand for: ‘Hey, this girl must be pretty special if she reckons she can get away with that!’
But do hidden depths of awesomeness exist beneath razor-sharp tongue? In my experience, sadly not. That’s why the emphasis is on dating - I don’t know anyone who can last the distance with someone like that. My demanding date girl initially captivating, but it soon got boring: lateness, mood swings and the annihilation of every book, film, play, friend or destination I liked saw that.
So I let her dump me - always a satisfying conclusion for any mean girl - and began dating someone much calmer who was less of a challenge, but who I actually enjoyed spending time with.
But did I miss the high-drama bitchiness I had been used to? Well, yes, a little bit. For as pleasant as a soft kiss and a tender cuddle from a girl might be, the allure of withstanding and perhaps one day conquering a nasty piece of work is, for most men a toxically-potent challenge.”
“It’s not because the light here is brighter
And it’s not that I’m evil, I just don’t like to pretend
That I could ever be your friend”
That I could ever be your friend”
I don't know what I know
but I know where it's at
just because I lost it doesn't mean I want it back
Happy anniversary baby, the 11 month curse has been lifted. I am crazy and out of my mind half the time but you seem to get it. Two dark fucks with a lot of love for each other. Right now I couldn't ask for more.
This is a collection of founded poems/quotes/pictures of brilliant minds and people, I DO try to label each and every bit of my blog as i do not like taking credit for anything that isn't mine. Don’t judge something that isn't worth worrying about and make it into something it’s not. Never think my posts are about anybody because you will end up falling into the rabbit role, lovers in my life I have found have never been fond of my blog because always think/thought too much about every detail written. It’s just a place for me to express and let me scream a bit of creativity as I don’t really get to do that in reality anymore.
Yours forever.
“Hours past, such alike the eyes.Gypsies and insects.Mouldy tiles, and empty bottles.I wanted to think of you,one last time.Before I threw you away, like you had done to I”
“every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future.”
Deepak Chopra
“What I’m learning as I grow-up is how valuable and important it is to be in control. Having sex with lots of people is cool, so long as that’s what you want, and what makes you feel good. Having sex with lots of people while you have a boyfriend, feeling uneasy about it, doing things you regret, and hurting the people you care about in the process, however, is not so cool. See what I’m saying? Having control is not about being a prude, it’s about knowing what you want and how to get it.”
THE PRESENT ME,TO THE PAST ME
“We all want to be desired–it makes us feel confident and powerful–but being desired and sleeping around are not one in the same. Restraint is extremely desirable. Knowing that someone wants you, but denying them sex, is probably more of an ego boost than a sloppy one-night-stand in the long run.”
Slutever
tell me then, why must it hurt? why must we feel continents away when our fingers can touch through the paper, through the walls? i whisper things in my sleep in hopes that you will find them. they lace my wall and i think that is the only reason i am warm. perhaps they don’t reach you and i keep writing and it is only building the walls thicker than we came even though we feel as though they are wasting away. i will always miss the sun even though i run from it. i thought i could be myself apart from the things i love.i thought i was big and real and grown, but i am not. i opened my insides to the depth of a finn, a creature i never grew and she forgets to sew me up and i never took lessons. i am learning. i am peeling from the sun. i am me. and sometimes i want to sleep. because pain becomes unbearable and love is unspeakable. maybe i should just draw watercolor tattoos on my arms so you can see what i mean. i want things i cannot have. and wanting takes too much. i love you. please meet at the new year with fireworks. i want to let go but i will never. because a long time ago in lands unknown your fingers found mine and they will never let go.
“i’m just dying to say, “hey, do you ever feel like jumping off a bridge?” or “do you feel an emptiness inside your chest at night that is going to swallow you?” but you can’t say that at a cocktail party.”
Paul Gilmartin, The Mental Illness Happy Hour
Paul Gilmartin, The Mental Illness Happy Hour
“more issues then vogue.”
“Forgiveness is important because it allows you to be at peace. If you must wait for everyone who has ever wronged you to apologize before being at peace, you may never actually get there. Therefore to learn forgiveness, regardless of whether or not it is asked for, is essential.”
The Lazy Yogi
“don’t ever put your happiness in someone else’s hands. they’ll drop it. they’ll drop it every time.”
C.Barzak, One For Sorrow
C.Barzak, One For Sorrow
"i use to jump in the sack thinking it would clarify how i felt" "and did it?" "no, if the feelings weren't there before then the sex was just that. SEX."
“I would rather have 30 minutes of “wonderful” than a lifetime of nothing special.”
i am not a easy girlfriend! I’m complicated in relationships and I go after much more complicated men.
you and me and a bottle of wine
and all these tired hearts,
dust-coated, broken, bruised
all at once
begin to beat.
“anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of time. there are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love shouldn't be one of them.”
Tiffanie DeBartolo
People always say
"why regret something you once wanted?"
but if I had known
what I know now
I never would have wanted it
in the first place.
(R.H.)
“But life isn't hard to manage when you've nothing to lose.”
Ernest Hemingwat, A Farewell to Arms
“Her lips drink water but her heart drinks wine.”
E.E. Cummings
“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. there are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.
Sylvia Plath
Sylvia Plath
“of course i am not worried about intimidating men. the type of man who will be intimidated by me is exactly the type of man i have no interest in.”
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichi
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichi
“Dear …, I don’t know what I could possibly say that would rectify the harm I've caused you. The truth of the matter is that being with you was the only time I have ever been happy. My whole life has been a joke. I prided myself on taking joy in others’ misery. Well, it finally backfired. I succeed in hurting the first person I ever loved. Enclosed is my most prized possession. My journal. For a long time I considered it my trophy. A sordid collection of my conquests. If you really want to know the truth then please read it. No more lies. Please give me another chance. I’m a wreck without you.”
“I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also someone that can make me smile.”
Abbey Lee Kershaw
Abbey Lee Kershaw
I fell for you fast
Straight into the pavement
I didn't even have time to wipe my bloody lip before I was speaking words of “I love you”.
Straight into the pavement
I didn't even have time to wipe my bloody lip before I was speaking words of “I love you”.
“Never go to sleep angry, because you never know if the person you’re mad at will wake up the next morning. Always forgive someone. You never know if you’ll speak to them again. Get over it. It’s better than knowing you’ll never get to tell them you’re sorry, or that you still love them. It might be too late.”
Unknown
Unknown
“Don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself… know what you want.”
White Oleande
White Oleande
“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.”
Sylvia Plath
“I had a couple of years that put me on a different path than I was planning. I've learned to listen to my gut instinct. I used to let people suck a lot out of me and now I’m much more strict about deciding who is in my personal life.”
“There’s a difference between loving the idea of someone and actually loving who they really are.”
"Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy."
Robert Tew
“You like him because he’s a lost boy. Believe me, I've seen it happen before. But do you know what happens to girls who love lost boys? They become lost themselves. Without fail.”
In french, you don’t really say
"I miss you." You say
"tu me manques," which is closer to "you are missing from me."
I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you ate essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.
Almost.
It’s a big word for me.
I feel it everywhere.
Almost home.
Almost happy.
Almost changed.
Almost, but not quite.
Not yet.
Soon, maybe.
I’m hoping hard for that.
“FEEL SHAME, NOT FOR THE WRONG THINGS I HAVE DONE. BUT FOR THE RIGHT THINGS THAT. I HAVE FAILED TO DO.”
“YOU’RE THE BEST THING THAT NEVER HAPPENED.”
To: Her
You were always the moon in my eyes and sometimes I absorb the night sky to remember you.
December 22, 2012.
“I’M NOT GOOD AT TELLING STORIES,
I AM A MESSY EATER,
HALF THE TIME. I DON’T MAKE SENSE.
AND I KNOW I FRUSTRATE YOU A LOT.
BUT I DO ADORE YOU.
”
BENVOLIO:
You’re in love?
ROMEO:
Out.
BENVOLIO:
Out of love?
ROMEO:
I love someone. She doesn't love me.
“You are the one for me
make me feel young,
take me on holiday
bite off my tongue
-
Darling one, darling
there’s nothing you lack
I’ll give you the sky
or the skin off my back
-
You are my angel
I’ll keep you from harm
talk to me sweetly
break both my arms
-
My Aphrodite
you’re every breath
sing me a lullaby
love me the death.”
“She was filled with the guilt
of not knowing why
she should feel guilty.”
of not knowing why
she should feel guilty.”
“you fall half in love with them, and
then you never know where the hell you are.”
J.D Salinger, Catcher in the Rye
then you never know where the hell you are.”
J.D Salinger, Catcher in the Rye
“He found her most beautiful not when she was all fancied up, but when she wasn't. When she was lying on the carpet, her hair all a mess, laughing about something that had happened years ago. When she wasn't trying to impress anyone, and taken down that wall she built for most people. That’s when he couldn't take his eyes off of her.”
i’esprit de l’escalier (French)
That feeling you get when you leave a
conversation and think of all the things
you should have said.
There is no word in the English language
for this.
I always get to a point when being with someone and it doesn't work out.
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“If only she could be so oblivious again, to feel such love without knowing it, mistaking it for laughter and bread with only the scent of jam spread on top of it. It was the best time of her life.”
Markus Zusak, The Book Thief
Milk and I moved in together, feels exciting and strange. I couldn't even settle down 8 months ago. I was to mad for everything. I could only love myself and I wasn't even good at that.
I don’t think I’ll regret anything I’ve done, because it’s an essential part of who I once was
“Odi et amo. quare id faciam, fortasse requiris?
nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.”
nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.”
