"Don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose."
Clive Lewis
I basically have a perfect life and yet i’m confused and drained. When I have order I search for anarchy and when I’m long debauched I yearn for discipline. I often live in the future. I want to be somewhere else, with someone else. Thinking makes it worse because I don’t think I should be, but I do. I respect balance and attitude and mind and body and spirit. I think I’m a romantic and I’m constantly searching
"This is why it hurts the way it hurts. You have too many words in your head. There are too many ways to describe the way you feel. You will never have the luxury of a dull ache. You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much.
Iain Thomas
"You only lose what you cling to."
I don’t
FUCK ME LATER
"I like people too much or not at all."
Sylvia Plath
her than here with me
You know I blamed him for not letting me do things? You know how stupid I feel about that now? Maybe he didn’t really encourage me to do things, he didn’t prevent me from doing them either. But after a while, i didn’t do things because I didn’t want him to think different of me. But the thing is, I wasn’t being honest. So, why would I care whether or not he loved me when
he didn’t really even know me?
The perks of being a wallflower
Okay, yeah, here's the thing about that... You were right. I'd gotten so used to keeping myself at a safe distance from all these guys and having the power that, that I didn't know what it felt like when I actually fell for one of them... I didn't know.
“Sometimes I have the most amazing moments of clarity. Razor sharp, crystal clear. It’s at these times I can see how fucking stupid I am.”
“It’s an odd thing to think about, but try imagining that your breakup is a disease. If you were told that you had a serious yet curable disease, would you go get hammered on a regular basis? Eat two bags of Oreos? Chain-smoke, pop pills, get stoned, or fuck around? NO YOU WOULDN’T. You would take great care of yourself and cut all the unhealthy things out of your life. Because you love yourself, and even if you don’t right now, WE DO. So put the (insert vice here) and start moving on.”
Buddha
why the long face baby?
"All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water. And that’s the tragedy of living."
I wrote this for you
"She’s like smoke: you think you’re seeing her clearly enough, but when you reach for her, there’s nothing there."
Ryū Murakami
"I don’t want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them."
"I love no one but you, I have discovered, but you are far away and I am here alone. Then this is my life and maybe, however unlikely, I’ll find my way back there. Or maybe, one day, I’ll settle for second best. And on that same day, hell will freeze over,the sun will burn out and the stars will fall from the sky."
Lemony Snicket
I don’t
even know
what we talk about
I just listen
to the sound of his voice
and to his laugh
and to the sound
of him listening
to me
"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."
Tennessee Williams
FUCK ME NOW
FUCK ME LATER
FUCK ME OFTEN
"I like people too much or not at all."
Sylvia Plath
"I’m not going to censor myself to comfort your ignorance."
Jon Stewart
The chase isn’t fun anymore.
I don’t think that I’ve been in love as such,
Although I liked a few folk pretty well.
Love must be vaster than my smiles or touch,
For brave men died and empires rose and fell
For love: girls followed boys to foreign lands
And men have followed women into Hell.
In plays and poems someone understands
There’s something makes us more than blood and bone
And more than biological demands…
For me, love’s like the wind, unseen, unknown.
I see the trees are bending where it’s been,
I know that it leaves wreckage where it’s blown.
I really don’t know what “I love you” means.
I think it means “Don’t leave me here alone.
Neil Gaiman
It always shocked me when I realized that I wasn’t the only person in the world who thought and felt such strange and awful things.
John Green, Looking for Alaska
It’ll all work out eventually better off with
her than here with me
“if you can’t handle me at my worst then you don’t deserve me at my best” translates to “if you can’t deal with my bitch fits we can’t have sex”
"I was actually starting to really like you but if
this is how it is then it’s fine"
boy
new boy alert: shrooms, hot mess, secrets, fears, lost track of time, comfortable, poor little rich boy.
"I write differently from what I speak, I speak differently from what I think, I think differently from the way I ought to think, and so it all proceeds into deepest darkness."
i think i’m a little bit. little bit.. a little bit in love with
you.
"If you are lonely when you’re alone, then you’re in bad company."
Jean-Paul Sartre
it’s surprisingly effortless when you learn to finally stop feeling attached to
everything from the sunrise to the person you used to wake up next to.
everything from the sunrise to the person you used to wake up next to.
If you snoop around long enough for something in particular, you’re guaranteed to find it. For better or worse that’s how I learned it’s best to just keep some things private
It was the best of times it was the end of times
The things that use to get me off, don’t any-more
The guys that use to keep entertain, don’t any-more
'DOES ME WANTING TO FUCK YOU, MAKE THIS AWKWARD?'
too many options may just kill a man
“I think men talk to women so they can sleep with them and women sleep with men so they can talk to them.”
THRILL ME,
CHILL ME,
FULFILL ME
FULFILL ME
You know I blamed him for not letting me do things? You know how stupid I feel about that now? Maybe he didn’t really encourage me to do things, he didn’t prevent me from doing them either. But after a while, i didn’t do things because I didn’t want him to think different of me. But the thing is, I wasn’t being honest. So, why would I care whether or not he loved me when
he didn’t really even know me?
The perks of being a wallflower
Okay, yeah, here's the thing about that... You were right. I'd gotten so used to keeping myself at a safe distance from all these guys and having the power that, that I didn't know what it felt like when I actually fell for one of them... I didn't know.
“Sometimes I have the most amazing moments of clarity. Razor sharp, crystal clear. It’s at these times I can see how fucking stupid I am.”
Tracey Emin: My Life in a Column
“It’s an odd thing to think about, but try imagining that your breakup is a disease. If you were told that you had a serious yet curable disease, would you go get hammered on a regular basis? Eat two bags of Oreos? Chain-smoke, pop pills, get stoned, or fuck around? NO YOU WOULDN’T. You would take great care of yourself and cut all the unhealthy things out of your life. Because you love yourself, and even if you don’t right now, WE DO. So put the (insert vice here) and start moving on.”
Greg Behrendt
I had this habit of turning boys into something I needed not wanted, they kinder became disposable. I think that was my problem, he didn’t seem important to me. That sounds terrible doesn’t it? I just can’t explain what happened it was just one bad thing after another maybe I needed this to realise I needed to grow up.
“A wise person once told me that if a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen, no matter what.”
I’m running as far away from the place i grew up as possible. a few more years. what’s happening? what’s happening? leaving you behind. finding new someones. kissing new ones. making new ones. i’m done i’m done i’m done. i’m never drinking again. “where’s my drink?” i’m never partying again. “what time is it good?” i’ll never be in love again. “ugh i’m in love with him, and him and them.
The reward for feeling better about yourself and no longer letting people treat you like shit is just that - feeling better about yourself and not having people treat you like shit.Replacing the mediocre relationships, halfhearted men, and meaningless sex and texts is not just bone-crushing loneliness. It’s confidence. It is the miraculous emotion that rolls in, to replace all the relationship rubble that has been swept away. No one is making you feel like you aren’t enough. No situation is making you feel unlovable. There is just you. There is just you and your standards And the more of it that comes, the more positive reinforcement you get. And then, the more it continues to grow. No, it’s not a sexy ass man whisking you off your feet, but it’s the thing that will get you there more assuredly than anything else. It’s confidence. And you must not underestimate the power and gift of that.
let my actions be my words
"Did you think it was weird that happening? "What? us fucking?" "Yeah" "Yeah slightly" "It was a little weird but good it wasn’t awkward."
